ok.i dont know whats wrong.
never good with words.
limited vocabulary.
just felt that way which the title suggest,

i dont like to have regrets.
i HATE shows that shows how regretful one will be,
especially when death is the cause of separation.
cause that is something never reversible.

the feeling is terrible.

-------------

i been wanting to blog this entry since that day.
that day when it happen.
a thursday i remembered.
that feeling really sucks.
i really was....
stumbled should be the word to describe.

sandy called.
seemed to know that something BAD.
literally BAD was gonna happen.
although expecting it.
but didnt know what was really gonna happen.

therefore still stumbled upon the situation.
although expecting it.
was sad i should say.
more than angry.
didnt feel accused.

was just speechless
didnt know what to say.
seriously, SPEECHLESS.

it was definitely harsh
harsh words.
harsh tone.

i really didnt know how should i react.

-------------

hahaha...its been yet a long long time since i posted an entry....
like once again...always doing this once in a while...
hahaha...

just suddenly being random...
suddenly feel OLD...
like literally...
dont they always say...old people always like to reminisce the past?

hahaha...then i am definitely old mans....hahaha...
always like to reminisce the past...

was wondering around delta sports complex the day before...
suddenly all the memories of primary school days really came back...
those days where i would purposely walked the longer way home.
so that i can chat with my friends longer...

then as i walked past the field.the PE storeroom.the canteen.the pond area.
those days of such fond memories.
our laughter.
our sweat.
our fun.

hahaha...sounds dumb.
but i sure miss those days in KSPS.
hahaha...be it good or bad.
but they were definitely FUN. :)

hahaha...random jesslyn on the go again.
halfway through corporate accounting paper.
where everyone is supposed to be trying their utmost best to complete that paper.
i suddenly missed POLY life.
hahaha...the BIG group life.
maybe it is cause the grand hall in SIM looks like TP sports hall?

hahaha...but suddenly miss everyone.and those days.
those days of MAKING DECISIONS!
where to go?what to eat?what to do?
hahaha...those days at delphine house doing project!
LAGOON's dinner.

also, my other classmates.
hahaha..
my super no need to meet up project group.
abigail.layyi.
hahaha...
then
some sort awkward but.... group.
xueli yan shan irvin.

then meet the fun and daring people group.
sharon zhenli zhiwei angeline

hahahahahaha....to be able to talk about the good memories of school.
STC memories is one part never to be missed.hahaha
the 3 different MATHS teacher we had..
the endless "lectures" we had by various people.

that scene never seem to disappear.
CORLISS AND I "hi-5"-ing after MATHS REMEDIAL.
hahaha...

too many memories....
too many nice memories.... :)

-------------

was it purely sparing a thought for me?or just worried?heh?

-------------

today as usual
friday
off
accompanied her
picked him up

then suddenly
realized
stuck in an
awkward situation

COLD WAR

confused
helpless

then i think
after that
ok!
after some
drama
in the carpark

fetch him back
tot happy ending
went back
sleep
sleep
ZzzZZZzz

out for dinner
thai express
weird
awkward
situation

he mood swing
i think
she so tired

i don't know

sometimes ok
sometimes not ok

he speaks with an arrow
"i heard you like people to be straightforward"
that incident mentioned
by her
HUH?
confused
wad did I do now?
honestly
at that moment
i was rather pissed
SIANsss i would say

next:
SERIOUS QUESTION
what kinda of people i don't like the most?

HUH?
wad with the question?
i answered
i think
talk le
then dont do
or something like
talk one do one

he said:;distinction answer
HUH?
asked that question back
he replied
people that suck up
cause of fame
cause of money

people who talk one do one
i don't know

can't figured that motive
of the question

next
asked me whether
i wanted to drive not

... ... ... ... ...

ok!its a happy ending :)

-------------

that incident
the incident
honestly
it is one that
i don't want
don't wish
to recall

don't know
why the tears
just keep flowing
non-stop

no matter how
i want it to stop
it just couldn't

i felt stupid
and dumb
wasting my tears
on such incident

been trying to
figure the reason
why
everyone asked me
i really don't know

honestly no one
knew or seemed
to understand
how i felt

they probably
felt that
"what an ass
crying over nothing"

i really got no idea
WHY?
i seriously
want to know too

it just a feeling
a feeling that
i don't know
how to describe

i guess
it is a mixture
a combination
of factors

one
disappointment
two
tone
three
method of handling
or more?

i don't know
too sensitive
too stubborn
maybe?

i thought
i am doom
thought that
this incident
is gotta be
like so
awkward
to see them
again

actually
honestly
after that day
it REALLY wasn't
about not being
able to get the car

but
seems like
no one believe
for i didn't
had a valid
or say
acceptable
reason

i really don't know
what came over me

i guess
everyone will protect
themselves
and who they loved
MOST

for me
my friends
for her
him
maybe thats why
in her strong tone

i really don't wish
cause of this
i don't know
STUPID?? incident
spoiling our relationship
of so many years

not trying to be noble
but
this group of friends
are really an important
part of my current life

it is just not worth it.

i know
i tend to see things
very differently
from them

i really hope that
this difference
will not be
a factor
that spoils
our relationship.

but
really
i was upset
very very
upset

for now,
don't know how
seemed to
gain some sort
of enlightenment

hope it stay status quo
and really
don't wish
for anymore
major
minor
quarrels

-------------

the wrong i did...
was the dinner...
dinner was unnecesaary...

the wrong i did...
was to be too happy too fast...

the wrong i did...
was to believe it...

the wrong i did...
not have the ability to own one...

the wrong i did...
the wrong i did...
i dont know...
i really don't know...

once i heard...
woman are made out of water...
i guess i am one of them...

-------------

finally after so many months.
changed my blogskin and also updated.

yesterday was club and resort examination.
so scared can.
finally its over.
one paper down.
one last one to go.
jia you!ping le!
hope i need not take supp paper!
[i dont wan!]
haha.

now trying hard to study for the last paper - travel and leisure
jia you jia you jia you!*

-------------

my favourite song!

專屬天使

我不會怪你 對我的偽裝
天使在人間是該藏好翅膀
人們愚蠢魯莽 而你纖細善良
怎能讓你 為了我被碰傷

小小的手掌 厚厚的溫暖
你總能平復我不安的夜晚
不敢想的夢想 透過你的眼光
我才看見 它原來在前方

沒有誰能把你搶離我身旁
你是我的 專屬天使 唯我能獨占
沒有誰能取代 你在我心上
擁有一個專屬天使 我哪裏還需要別的願望

小小的手掌 大大的力量
我一定也會像你一樣飛翔
最想去的地方 就是我的方向
有我保護 笑容儘管燦爛

沒有誰能把你搶離我身旁
你是我的專屬天使 唯我能獨占
沒有誰能取代 你在我心上
擁有一個專屬天使 我哪裏還需要別的願望

哦 要不是你出現 我一定還在沉睡
喔 絕望的以為 生命只有黑夜～

沒有誰能把你搶離我身旁
你是我的專屬天使 唯我能獨占
沒有誰能取代你在我心上
擁有一個專屬天使 我哪裏還需要別的願望
哦～嗚～

-------------

haha.been a long long time since i last update this blog.almost like a dead blog le.haha.been wanting to come and update for quite sometime le.but you xin wu li...hahaha."
as for tonite...managed to find that li to come online and update it finally...haha.
although now studying for exams shouldnt be do this updating now...but just wanted to blog this tonite
TONITE IS SUCH A STARRY NITE!

-------------

ok.i dont know whats wrong.
never good with words.
limited vocabulary.
just felt that way which the title suggest,

i dont like to have regrets.
i HATE shows that shows how regretful one will be,
especially when death is the cause of separation.
cause that is something never reversible.

the feeling is terrible.


-------------

i been wanting to blog this entry since that day.
that day when it happen.
a thursday i remembered.
that feeling really sucks.
i really was....
stumbled should be the word to describe.

sandy called.
seemed to know that something BAD.
literally BAD was gonna happen.
although expecting it.
but didnt know what was really gonna happen.

therefore still stumbled upon the situation.
although expecting it.
was sad i should say.
more than angry.
didnt feel accused.

was just speechless
didnt know what to say.
seriously, SPEECHLESS.

it was definitely harsh
harsh words.
harsh tone.

i really didnt know how should i react.
-------------

hahaha...its been yet a long long time since i posted an entry....
like once again...always doing this once in a while...
hahaha...

just suddenly being random...
suddenly feel OLD...
like literally...
dont they always say...old people always like to reminisce the past?

hahaha...then i am definitely old mans....hahaha...
always like to reminisce the past...

was wondering around delta sports complex the day before...
suddenly all the memories of primary school days really came back...
those days where i would purposely walked the longer way home.
so that i can chat with my friends longer...

then as i walked past the field.the PE storeroom.the canteen.the pond area.
those days of such fond memories.
our laughter.
our sweat.
our fun.

hahaha...sounds dumb.
but i sure miss those days in KSPS.
hahaha...be it good or bad.
but they were definitely FUN. :)

hahaha...random jesslyn on the go again.
halfway through corporate accounting paper.
where everyone is supposed to be trying their utmost best to complete that paper.
i suddenly missed POLY life.
hahaha...the BIG group life.
maybe it is cause the grand hall in SIM looks like TP sports hall?

hahaha...but suddenly miss everyone.and those days.
those days of MAKING DECISIONS!
where to go?what to eat?what to do?
hahaha...those days at delphine house doing project!
LAGOON's dinner.

also, my other classmates.
hahaha..
my super no need to meet up project group.
abigail.layyi.
hahaha...
then
some sort awkward but.... group.
xueli yan shan irvin.

then meet the fun and daring people group.
sharon zhenli zhiwei angeline

hahahahahaha....to be able to talk about the good memories of school.
STC memories is one part never to be missed.hahaha
the 3 different MATHS teacher we had..
the endless "lectures" we had by various people.

that scene never seem to disappear.
CORLISS AND I "hi-5"-ing after MATHS REMEDIAL.
hahaha...

too many memories....
too many nice memories.... :)


-------------

was it purely sparing a thought for me?or just worried?heh?
-------------

today as usual
friday
off
accompanied her
picked him up

then suddenly
realized
stuck in an
awkward situation

COLD WAR

confused
helpless

then i think
after that
ok!
after some
drama
in the carpark

fetch him back
tot happy ending
went back
sleep
sleep
ZzzZZZzz

out for dinner
thai express
weird
awkward
situation

he mood swing
i think
she so tired

i don't know

sometimes ok
sometimes not ok

he speaks with an arrow
"i heard you like people to be straightforward"
that incident mentioned
by her
HUH?
confused
wad did I do now?
honestly
at that moment
i was rather pissed
SIANsss i would say

next:
SERIOUS QUESTION
what kinda of people i don't like the most?

HUH?
wad with the question?
i answered
i think
talk le
then dont do
or something like
talk one do one

he said:;distinction answer
HUH?
asked that question back
he replied
people that suck up
cause of fame
cause of money

people who talk one do one
i don't know

can't figured that motive
of the question

next
asked me whether
i wanted to drive not

... ... ... ... ...

ok!its a happy ending :)


-------------

that incident
the incident
honestly
it is one that
i don't want
don't wish
to recall

don't know
why the tears
just keep flowing
non-stop

no matter how
i want it to stop
it just couldn't

i felt stupid
and dumb
wasting my tears
on such incident

been trying to
figure the reason
why
everyone asked me
i really don't know

honestly no one
knew or seemed
to understand
how i felt

they probably
felt that
"what an ass
crying over nothing"

i really got no idea
WHY?
i seriously
want to know too

it just a feeling
a feeling that
i don't know
how to describe

i guess
it is a mixture
a combination
of factors

one
disappointment
two
tone
three
method of handling
or more?

i don't know
too sensitive
too stubborn
maybe?

i thought
i am doom
thought that
this incident
is gotta be
like so
awkward
to see them
again

actually
honestly
after that day
it REALLY wasn't
about not being
able to get the car

but
seems like
no one believe
for i didn't
had a valid
or say
acceptable
reason

i really don't know
what came over me

i guess
everyone will protect
themselves
and who they loved
MOST

for me
my friends
for her
him
maybe thats why
in her strong tone

i really don't wish
cause of this
i don't know
STUPID?? incident
spoiling our relationship
of so many years

not trying to be noble
but
this group of friends
are really an important
part of my current life

it is just not worth it.

i know
i tend to see things
very differently
from them

i really hope that
this difference
will not be
a factor
that spoils
our relationship.

but
really
i was upset
very very
upset

for now,
don't know how
seemed to
gain some sort
of enlightenment

hope it stay status quo
and really
don't wish
for anymore
major
minor
quarrels





-------------

the wrong i did...
was the dinner...
dinner was unnecesaary...

the wrong i did...
was to be too happy too fast...

the wrong i did...
was to believe it...

the wrong i did...
not have the ability to own one...

the wrong i did...
the wrong i did...
i dont know...
i really don't know...

once i heard...
woman are made out of water...
i guess i am one of them...
-------------

finally after so many months.
changed my blogskin and also updated.

yesterday was club and resort examination.
so scared can.
finally its over.
one paper down.
one last one to go.
jia you!ping le!
hope i need not take supp paper!
[i dont wan!]
haha.

now trying hard to study for the last paper - travel and leisure
jia you jia you jia you!*
-------------

my favourite song!

專屬天使

我不會怪你 對我的偽裝
天使在人間是該藏好翅膀
人們愚蠢魯莽 而你纖細善良
怎能讓你 為了我被碰傷

小小的手掌 厚厚的溫暖
你總能平復我不安的夜晚
不敢想的夢想 透過你的眼光
我才看見 它原來在前方

沒有誰能把你搶離我身旁
你是我的 專屬天使 唯我能獨占
沒有誰能取代 你在我心上
擁有一個專屬天使 我哪裏還需要別的願望

小小的手掌 大大的力量
我一定也會像你一樣飛翔
最想去的地方 就是我的方向
有我保護 笑容儘管燦爛

沒有誰能把你搶離我身旁
你是我的專屬天使 唯我能獨占
沒有誰能取代 你在我心上
擁有一個專屬天使 我哪裏還需要別的願望

哦 要不是你出現 我一定還在沉睡
喔 絕望的以為 生命只有黑夜～

沒有誰能把你搶離我身旁
你是我的專屬天使 唯我能獨占
沒有誰能取代你在我心上
擁有一個專屬天使 我哪裏還需要別的願望
哦～嗚～
-------------

haha.been a long long time since i last update this blog.almost like a dead blog le.haha.been wanting to come and update for quite sometime le.but you xin wu li...hahaha."
as for tonite...managed to find that li to come online and update it finally...haha.
although now studying for exams shouldnt be do this updating now...but just wanted to blog this tonite
TONITE IS SUCH A STARRY NITE!
-------------

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