Saturday, May 09, 2009
that incident 12:17 AM

that incident
the incident
honestly
it is one that
i don't want
don't wish
to recall

don't know
why the tears
just keep flowing
non-stop

no matter how
i want it to stop
it just couldn't

i felt stupid
and dumb
wasting my tears
on such incident

been trying to
figure the reason
why
everyone asked me
i really don't know

honestly no one
knew or seemed
to understand
how i felt

they probably
felt that
"what an ass
crying over nothing"

i really got no idea
WHY?
i seriously
want to know too

it just a feeling
a feeling that
i don't know
how to describe

i guess
it is a mixture
a combination
of factors

one
disappointment
two
tone
three
method of handling
or more?

i don't know
too sensitive
too stubborn
maybe?

i thought
i am doom
thought that
this incident
is gotta be
like so
awkward
to see them
again

actually
honestly
after that day
it REALLY wasn't
about not being
able to get the car

but
seems like
no one believe
for i didn't
had a valid
or say
acceptable
reason

i really don't know
what came over me

i guess
everyone will protect
themselves
and who they loved
MOST

for me
my friends
for her
him
maybe thats why
in her strong tone

i really don't wish
cause of this
i don't know
STUPID?? incident
spoiling our relationship
of so many years

not trying to be noble
but
this group of friends
are really an important
part of my current life

it is just not worth it.

i know
i tend to see things
very differently
from them

i really hope that
this difference
will not be
a factor
that spoils
our relationship.

but
really
i was upset
very very
upset

for now,
don't know how
seemed to
gain some sort
of enlightenment

hope it stay status quo
and really
don't wish
for anymore
major
minor
quarrels
wilkommen
hi!*

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i am jesslyn*
loves the stars.
honoured to be a virgo.
travelling around the world is the way of life for me now..


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