Saturday, May 09, 2009 // 12:40 AM
today as usual
friday
off
accompanied her
picked him up
then suddenly
realized
stuck in an
awkward situation
COLD WAR
confused
helpless
then i think
after that
ok!
after some
drama
in the carpark
fetch him back
tot happy ending
went back
sleep
sleep
ZzzZZZzz
out for dinner
thai express
weird
awkward
situation
he mood swing
i think
she so tired
i don't know
sometimes ok
sometimes not ok
he speaks with an arrow
"i heard you like people to be straightforward"
that incident mentioned
by her
HUH?
confused
wad did I do now?
honestly
at that moment
i was rather pissed
SIANsss i would say
next:
SERIOUS QUESTION
what kinda of people i don't like the most?
HUH?
wad with the question?
i answered
i think
talk le
then dont do
or something like
talk one do one
he said:;distinction answer
HUH?
asked that question back
he replied
people that suck up
cause of fame
cause of money
people who talk one do one
i don't know
can't figured that motive
of the question
next
asked me whether
i wanted to drive not
... ... ... ... ...
ok!its a happy ending :)
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// 12:17 AM
that incident
the incident
honestly
it is one that
i don't want
don't wish
to recall
don't know
why the tears
just keep flowing
non-stop
no matter how
i want it to stop
it just couldn't
i felt stupid
and dumb
wasting my tears
on such incident
been trying to
figure the reason
why
everyone asked me
i really don't know
honestly no one
knew or seemed
to understand
how i felt
they probably
felt that
"what an ass
crying over nothing"
i really got no idea
WHY?
i seriously
want to know too
it just a feeling
a feeling that
i don't know
how to describe
i guess
it is a mixture
a combination
of factors
one
disappointment
two
tone
three
method of handling
or more?
i don't know
too sensitive
too stubborn
maybe?
i thought
i am doom
thought that
this incident
is gotta be
like so
awkward
to see them
again
actually
honestly
after that day
it REALLY wasn't
about not being
able to get the car
but
seems like
no one believe
for i didn't
had a valid
or say
acceptable
reason
i really don't know
what came over me
i guess
everyone will protect
themselves
and who they loved
MOST
for me
my friends
for her
him
maybe thats why
in her strong tone
i really don't wish
cause of this
i don't know
STUPID?? incident
spoiling our relationship
of so many years
not trying to be noble
but
this group of friends
are really an important
part of my current life
it is just not worth it.
i know
i tend to see things
very differently
from them
i really hope that
this difference
will not be
a factor
that spoils
our relationship.
but
really
i was upset
very very
upset
for now,
don't know how
seemed to
gain some sort
of enlightenment
hope it stay status quo
and really
don't wish
for anymore
major
minor
quarrels
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Thursday, May 07, 2009 // 12:14 AM
the wrong i did...
was the dinner...
dinner was unnecesaary...
the wrong i did...
was to be too happy too fast...
the wrong i did...
was to believe it...
the wrong i did...
not have the ability to own one...
the wrong i did...
the wrong i did...
i dont know...
i really don't know...
once i heard...
woman are made out of water...
i guess i am one of them...
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